crybaby
(result of residency, 2021)
"...the artist is in a sense, a neuroscientist, exploring the potentials and capacities of the brain, though with different tools. How such creations can arouse aesthetic experiences can only be fully understood in neural terms. Such an understanding is now well within our reach." S. Zeki


I had a chance and a great opportunity to have a second thought on my Crybaby work. I participated the residency in Portrait Studio Gallery in my hometown Lodz, which as a completly different experience made me remake some of my art pieces.

Gallery is located very near to the hospital, where as an infant I went through a horror. Poor baby, so close to death, was taken to another hospital to simply fix what was destroyed there - most of my body.

Many years after that I struggled a lot with my health - as a child I spend countless days in hospitals. That was the biggest impact I deal with continousely untill this day. Medical aspect of my life still is my main point of creating, and the art residency so close to the place I nearly died, re-defined the work Crybaby.
“I am a crybaby,
I need to cry,
I need to be hysterical.
I feel sorry.
I'm pouring out.

I'm looking for regularities and disturbing them.
I destroy.
I'm analyzing anomalies however.
I'm stubborn to find what works and what is not.
Why we surrounding ourselves so compulsively by regular structures?
Regular structures surrounding us.
From cells and tissues to the wires of matress on which we've got our worst nightmares.”


- exhibition description