We are a whole system of regular cells. We are regular from a biochemical point of view. Disturbances of the order are inherent in the nature of our bodies. Until something is disturbed, though it is inscribed in regularity of human being. Anomalies are within borderlines. However, something tears up the connection from the inside and makes that least hurtful for me is to looking with my eyes closed.
The beginning is the way out. I treat tears as a link between endo and exo. In my understanding, they are an emotional charge and testifying certain processes in the human mind. In that case apparently going outside, which should be the end, the last part of the cycle, only prove that you are going inside of this process.
video, object: bandage, plaster, UV gel, net
Isolation. At that time I had such a moment that I couldn't touch the materials somehow, nothing object-oriented was created. It is actually because I would not have anyone who I could show my object-oriented works to. At 2AM I started drawing things that tiring me on the tablet. In parallel, they already had their titles, intertwined with their shapes within drawings. A large collection of objects has now been created under their influence.
Technology allows us to illustrate and testify to the
existence of related phenomena, things or problems that we do not see. The
development of tools has allowed us to see platelets, broken bones, and even
atoms. We accept these images because these and only these confirm the presence
or absence of "something". This problem pushed me to work on shaping
and creating images of mental illnesses. The issue of mental disorders, in the
context of imaging, is the inability to visualize. The inability to define and
describe them in an absorbent and imaginable way. I try to create their shape,
give them material, touchable form to understand them better. Inspired by the
features that connect all mental disorders, I created a group of photographic
objects. This is my attempt to give a defined feeling of the disorder. The most
important thing in my work is the experience of synchronized audio, video and
objects inside of the claustrophobic gallery at the same time.
The work consists of 10 objects, video and soundscape.
I move between recording a certain retrospective process, the remains of it, alienation, isolation. I continue the concept of incubation, tears, organic and somewhat anthropomorphic forms. Nothing new is born for its duration, it even goes back, runs away, returns to the matrix, looks for a controlled, closed environment.
still video projection on mattress foam
Feelings in their essence are an unpresentable image.
Removing them from the sphere of impressions, however, became for me an intuitive
action, where I enchanted in the shape of memories a metal wire. Each of those
objects is a synthesis of my feelings, past relationships when I sincerely
loved. The basic, yet an ephemeral feeling of love has been
taken out of me and materialized with wire objects. I certify it using
photographs. The objects have entered into a relation with photograms, the
photographic record of their shape strengthens them in the real, tangible
world, additionally ensuring that they existed. The exposure burned those
enchanted feelings, memories and shapes in paper.
Love along with its loftiness became a white shadow of a metal wire on baryta paper.
metal wire objects, baryta paper prints