We are a whole system of regular cells. We are regular from a biochemical point of view. Disturbances of the order are inherent in the nature of our bodies. Until something is disturbed, though it is inscribed in regularity of human being. Anomalies are within borderlines. However, something tears up the connection from the inside and makes that least hurtful for me is to looking with my eyes closed.

The beginning is the way out. I treat tears as a link between endo and exo. In my understanding, they are an emotional charge and testifying certain processes in the human mind. In that case apparently going outside, which should be the end, the last part of the cycle, only prove that you are going inside of this process.

video, object: bandage, plaster, UV gel, net

DIS ORDER

Technology allows us to illustrate and testify to the existence of related phenomena, things or problems that we do not see. The development of tools has allowed us to see platelets, broken bones, and even atoms. We accept these images because these and only these confirm the presence or absence of "something". 

This problem pushed me to work on shaping and creating images of mental illnesses. The issue of mental disorders, in the context of imaging, is the inability to visualize. The inability to define and describe them in an absorbent and imaginable way. I try to create their shape, give them material, touchable form to understand them better. Inspired by the features that connect all mental disorders,

I created a group of photographic objects. This is my attempt to give a defined feeling of the disorder. The most important thing in my work is the experience of synchronized audio, video and objects inside of the claustrophobic gallery at the same time.

The work consists of 10 objects, video and soundscape.

 

empty states of mind consists of three objects, representing three specific points in the space of the room.

The visual impulse for the first part of the series was the ceiling remembered since I was a child - made of plaster icicles in my family home. It scared me and at the same time because of its atypicality, I still wanted to look at it.

Feeling emptiness and suspension. I usually experienced fear or anxiety during sleepless nights, staring at insignificant points, trying to control my thoughts.

Therefore "staring at ..." has acquired a new quality for me. I reevaluated thoughts of an empty state of mind that results in intense gazing blank, absent-minded at the ceiling, chandelier or peeling off wallpaper from the wall.
I interpreted these three suspension points of sight, mirroring a state of frustration and overwhelming thoughts.

Both the materials used and the impressions mentioned, as well as the colors, are an essential part of the empty-states, which representative forms I created.

dried gelatin, lightbulbs, plaster.

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Feelings in their essence are an unpresentable image.

Removing them from the sphere of impressions, however, became for me an intuitive action, where I enchanted in the shape of memories a metal wire. Each of those objects is a synthesis of my feelings, past relationships when I sincerely loved.

The basic, yet an ephemeral feeling of love has been taken out of me and materialized with wire objects. I certify it using photographs. The objects have entered into a relation with photograms, the photographic record of their shape strengthens them in the real, tangible world, additionally ensuring that they existed. 

The exposure burned those enchanted feelings, memories and shapes in paper.Love along with its loftiness became a white shadow of a metal wire on baryta paper.

metal wire objects, baryta paper prints